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welcome to the worst week ive had in a long time. well, to be honest, most of my life is pretty shit but i mean this week was a lot more physical and personal, both of which are never fun.

first, i got food poisoning after visiting a buffet and eating sushi. some may say thats not a good idea but ive done that for years and it never happened to me before until now. i rarely get sick, actually. whether it be colds or flu or even throwing up. i HATE throwing up, so it was pretty awful and gross and was one of the worst days for me.

im now going through a.. split. that i dont really feel like talking about for some reason, i guess i just like being private. but its hard for me to talk to anyone without feeling emotional. ive always said i seemed to have lost my ability to cry unless i get very frustrated and someone were to push me towards it. but this does show i can cry. im a human after all. its weird, i havent cried this much since i lost an old friend of mine. it just happens randomly over and over again and i have to hide it so my mom wont see and i wont have to explain it to her. because if i have to do that, ill cry more. crying in front of people is hard for me and also embarrassing... probably because when i do cry, usually my mom mocks me for it so i try not to.

soon, my time of the month will come in the next few days. great. more physical pain. ive already had headaches all week. not looking forward to this at all.